Friday, October 21, 2005
{ 6:00 AM }
was rather pissed with sumone, but tink again, i tink we should go understand the whole truth. cuz juz now i was like reading the newspaper abt the horoscope thingy, dhen they were like saying, undrstand the whole truth b4 saying tt someone is wrong. i feel rather guilty. did i do sth wrongli? mayb tt will cuz a friendship to b gone? i muz find out the truth. mayb it's not wat we all tot it was. okies. i'm sorrie. for being so rash. i should b more like..rational. yep, tt's the word. i'll not b so rash nxt tym(: tuday had np. was so tiring. i couldnt stand it. i was a bit feverish n dhen almost vomitted during the amazing race briefing. dhen my tongue had cramp cuz i couldnt vomit but felt like vomiting..vv uncomfortable. sho i forced lar. in the end, my tongue cramped. walao. nvm. went np staright away, but cuz i'm not feeling well so i onli changed into mufti. hahas. sho happi. but i realli was sick okay? hahaas. yep. drill like siao. our squad came onli abt 10 ppl lor. so pathetic. they wanna run the canal, but when ask who didnt eat lunch, all of us xcept for lucus raised up their hands. yep. so jasmine nco went to buy us a burger. borrowed money from jon sir larz. still havent return.during pt, i tot was running canal, but in the end, onli around the skul, but i still falled out. cuz i cough mahz..got breathing difficulties. yep. after tt tot got masters, but in the end got a talk by mr kwek. we were like standing dere n he kip toking. haiz..in the end my leg cramp lar. he say dunt noe wat, our squad the attendence vv low n stuffs like this. say wat the unit will fall in our hands. hahaas..the unit's fate is in our hands to destroy. i mean..dunt scold us lar. we'r the ones who came lehs. wanna scold go scold those who didnt cum lorx. dunt scold lar..muz make dhem understand. u tell us oso no use cuz we cant do anithing. tie them up n bring them to np mehs? no rytes? make them understand the reason bhind all this. haiz. now my leg vv pain. cramp lorx. later put it into warm water dhen let all the veins, arteries and capillaries relax. heheex. tuday the lessons all vv slack. first we got briefed on zhong zheng bian bian bian. yep. quite bored. yep. later got science. i got one marks added. hahaas. sho happi, but i nid to get 74 to get an overall A. unless larz. but aniway, i'm happi le. my philosophy of life:
1)life is miserable.
life is foreva so miserable. we cant do the things we want. instead, we haf to do the things ohter ppl want. u may ask me wat kind of reasong i'm tokg, but tt's true. try tinkg abt it when u'r free.
2)nothing gold cn stay-adapted by robert frost.
i guess i haf the same sentiments as him. cuz i like this peom a lot. i'm lurving it. it's so pessimistic abt life. u worked hard for things, but in the end, wat u get? nothing. one day u'll die n everything will b gone. everyone will b sad for u've died, but after a while, wat happens? dhey forget u. yep. the way dallas think so, but bcuz it's going to end after a while, we muz shine. let the light b seen by everyone n leave a memory behind. i finalli understood. i'll neva b sad.
3)watever is worth doing is worth doing well.
watever u tink u want or nid to do, u muz do it with upmost effort, so tt although we'r gone, our memories will kip. i'll do my best from tuday onwards. shine. jia yous.
got baq my art tuday. surprising manz. hehees. the highest tsunami ever gaf me for the days he taught me. hahaas. but my view towards him is still the same. no changes. huang lao shi is so furni. i find out tt actaulli she's nice. i'm the one who juz anihow deduce by one incident. i'm too judgemental. like ponyboy judging too quickli on johnny, like the way socs judge greasers. i muz change myself. i'm too rash n fiery. too judgemental. i muz change. if not..i sux.